Blah Blah, I haven't been on here in 2 years...wow...funny how time flies by you. I haven't been in school for 2 years and i find myself...missing it. I miss getting up and going to classes and seeing all the people you know and love, not to mention those..quorky people. I miss getting homework and not doing it til the next morning when i have 5 mins til the bell rings. I miss the side conversations and inside we had...wow i miss school. So i guess i'm gonna get off my ass and finally start college... I could have been half-way done by now. But I have learned a great deal about life in the last two years. I learned that no matter what you do or how much of a "good" job you do, there is always gonna be that ladder that can GO even HIGHER--like reaching for the stars, but after you reach them you're reaching for something higher...like...hea..ven..? I don't know...

I find myself torn between who i was and who i am suppose to be. Who cares who i am now...that isn't the point. I won't ever be who i was and will never be who I want to be...so I'll just be a dark matter that has occupied this space..I feel down, but I am not...

I love it when i see people and see their faces and i know that i recognize them as they do me, but we turn our heads away as if we are embarassed or ashames, why is that?

But for me, i can see peoples faces and hear their voice and continue walking...just walking on a road with no particular destination or purpose...other than getting away, just getting away sounds good.

I love it when people assume I am a nice person just because I do a simply "nice" gesture...There are no such thing as "a nice person" people are people and only treat you a certain way because...well they are after something. Everyone has a hidden agenda...everyone...

Anyways, I don't know anything of this crap I typed made any sense but i somewhat communicated my thoughts in a somewhat logical order...but who cares...I have finally updated, that's all that matters.